What now?

What happens when you graduate? 

~ a friend of mine keeps asking me this question. I wish I knew the exact answer. In general, the last few years have been easy to plan around. Hard, stressful, and annoying: yes, but I at least knew what was most important to me. School.

There was always school there to plan around. I knew that if my work schedule didn’t work with school, I needed to find something different. Firm was my belief that school was my first priority, everything else came second, or third, or fourth, etc. School was going to lead me to my career.

But now what?

Over this last summer I took a class that mostly focused on applying to graduate schools, and what comes next after getting a Bachelors in Behavioral Science. It was a very interesting class. I feel like it taught me a lot. Especially, surprisingly, with things that I thought I already knew about, like resumes. I learned many tips and tricks that I had never even thought about before.

However, that class left me slightly anxious when it comes to graduate school applications. I feel like there is so much to do! Like perhaps I need another 4 years just to gather up and prepare to apply!

I have known for a while that I will take a year off between graduating with my Bachelors, and attending Graduate school. This will give me time to perhaps intern somewhere, rack up some more volunteer hours, and frankly, take a break. {as I’m actually doing the whole applying process}

I feel like there should be some sort of goal list {you know I like lists… you have noticed right?}. A list of things to do on my year off, however, then I thought holy shit why would I want to make a list of things to do on my YEAR OFF? Why don’t I take it just as that, a year off?!

Perhaps the thing behind the goal list, is then maybe my life would look predictable again: I have no idea what will happen after graduation. I have no idea where I will be doing my practicum. And I have no idea if it will all work with my current job like I want it to. That’s part of the problem, {or is it a problem?} I actually enjoy my job. Most days. But it has nothing to do with social work.

Who knows. Maybe I could do both. I only work 32 hours, is that part time? It feels like more than that...  Maybe I will only be able to find a part time social work related job. Maybe I will want to travel, and jobs won’t even matter for a while. {but then where will I find the money... } There are those French internship programs that I keep looking at. There are those African humanitarian treks that I always want to go on.

I fear the unknown.

And I have a whole year to be afraid.

What are you currently afraid of?

Share

Read more...

Its been awhile..

Weird! I was a blogaholic, fanatic.. but I didn't post anything for over a week.

Over a week.

How crazy is that.. ?

• A lot of silly stressful things have happened in the past week-ish. Let's see, I got in a car accident. That was technically my fault, because I rear ended someone, by school, because I wasn't paying enough attention, and some dude just HAD to cross the road in front of the car in front of me, right at that moment. Ugh. I still get tense driving, or riding in the car with someone. And my body was so sore after wards! My neck and upper back still kind of hurt, because I got so tense and uckee when I had to slam on my brakes.

• Tim had his 12th birthday - as you can see with my last post before my little blogging hiatus of sorts. I can't believe he's 12 already. Its crazy. I was 13 when he was born!

• I got in an altercation with the neighbor lady, cause Je la déteste vraiment. Elle est une chienne. Literally, pardon my French..

• Work = Drama. We should probably leave it at that, since who knows what's going to happen with all of it, and I'd rather not be told that my blog is inappropriate or something. But my hell , I wish it didn't have to be so dramatic. I swear, most bad experiences can be easily absolved of with good communication. Seriously.
  

• However, I've just been doing MY job, doing what I need to do in my Department.. helping out when I can at the registers, folding the denim for Mens, and getting Mailing Lists. So much easier when I don't have issues with dramatic dramaness.
  

• I dyed my hair. I bought a nice n' easy "darkest brown" hair color, and had Ash dye it for me. But it didn't really become "darkest brown," my hair's closer to black, than brown. Its so dark. Sigh.. but its not like I've had this color before. So we'll wait a few weeks and then dye it to a less black version. This pic is one I took right after I dyed it.. I don't have hardly any makeup on, so don't judge too much.
  

• I finally figured out my United Way Internship. I am doing research with The Woman and Education Project with UVU. Its actually really interesting. They're trying to find out why, and how we can change, the fact that more men in Utah graduate from College than women. Many Utah women either start school and never finish, or they never even start college. I think that's so sad! But then, after I got this assignment I started noticing how I really notice a higher percentage of men at school than women. So lame. Is Woman's Suffrage dead? Or did it just never reach Utah's school environment? I know so many girls that wait for their husbands to get their degrees. Their husbands. I guess its just one of those things that's part of Utah culture. Many cultures outside of Utah wait until after college to get married. Interesting.

Seems that that.. is that.

2 weeks until Phoenix, U2 and Black Eyed Peas!

Read more...

Live United

Yes, I am a new Intern for The United Way of Utah County.

Am I excited?

Yes I am.

It's an unpaid internship, with the Help Me Grow program. Basically assisting parents over the phone, and hooking them up with different services for their family. For free. How cool is that? I have always really loved The United Way. I used to donate $50 a paycheck when I worked at the library! Yes, indeed if I did that now I would have to walk. everywhere . I love The United Way, and am super excited to get involved with them. I hope that perhaps it will not only be a great learning experience, but a great networking experience, so that it can help me be the awesome Social Worker that I know I can be. MMMMMM hmmmmmm.


Also YAY ME for checking off one of my School Goals.. (listed on the right side panel), which reads 2009/2010 Land awesome Internship(s)* :: insert giant check mark here, cause I succeeded that one.


* I plan to apply for the Ascend Internship in January, which would be an equally awesome Internship, where I would learn so much. I'm excited to be successful, tee~hee :: wink ::

Read more...